Leave Me by Claire Raye
Author:Claire Raye [Raye, Claire]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Claire Raye
15
NICK
Iâve been back in Badger Creek for a couple of weeks now and itâs weird to suddenly realize that I can barely remember what it was like being away. All the days and nights I spent away from this place, hanging with the team, or stuck on a bus, or in a crowded dorm, or skiing mountains I donât recognize; it all feels so distant now, like it happened years ago. Even my accident feels like a distant memory, although my knee likes to occasionally remind me itâs not.
But the absolute best part about these past two weeks, without a doubt, has been everything with me and Lis. Things between us have been good ever since that night we chatted in her car by the lake. And although the future is still up in the air and thereâs so much thatâs still unknown, Iâm really trying not to let her get stuck on all of that.
Which doesnât mean I donât constantly think about that or her question to me.
What are you most afraid of with all of this?
When sheâd asked me this, Iâd answered her honestly when Iâd said, âLosing you.â And then Iâd lied, because I hadnât added, âAnd not knowing what happens next.â
Losing Elissa again was absolutely my worst fear, without a doubt. But I was also scared about what came next. About who the fuck I was supposed to be if I couldnât compete, couldnât ski again. A part of me feels like Iâm slowly coming to terms with the fact that my Olympic dream is now over, but Iâm still not sure who I am without it.
Itâs been a dream of mine for so long now and I left so much behind to try and achieve it, made so many fucking mistakes trying to get to the highest peak I could. And now, I no longer know who I am if Iâm not chasing that dream. Who Iâm supposed to be without it. For her or for me.
Which is why I hadnât been able to admit all my fears to her.
And I hated that. Because Lis and I have always been honest with each other, no matter what was going on. Which right now, is everything to us and nothing to anyone else.
Because apart from her mom, no one else knows whatâs going on between us. We still havenât told our friends, and we donât act or do anything to suggest we are together the few times weâre out in public together. And even though it feels shitty to keep it from them, itâs also been good not having the fifty million questions we both know weâll get if our friends find out about us.
Itâs been amazing just being able to be us without everything else.
âYou know, you may as well just move all of your clothes over here,â I suggest from the bed, as I watch Lis walk in from the bathroom and crouch down, wrapped in nothing but a towel.
She glances over, a smile
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